So as I have lived my life I realize that things in life may be a struggle from time to time but it's what you make of it that makes it all worth it. So I have been in such a abussive relationship in my past sometimes we really never realize how are past tends to haunt our future, wether it be our childhood or our relationships we were in.
One day my ex partner told me I was far to quiet for her, this person I fell in love with normally I am one to put all my guards up and never faulter from it, so anybody believe in love of first sight I know I didn't I never believed that there was such a thing till I me her.
I believe all things happen for a reason, and she was brought into my life so that I can feel what it truly is like to be completely loved unconditionally. It was like the movies that butterflie in the stomach where you can hardly move, or talk kind of thing. So I couldn't ever realize why I was so quiet when I was around her, till after we broke it off. As hard as it was to be crushed it helped me search more deeply and realize what it was that made me shut down when I was with her.
So one day I went out with a friend and a fight broke out I curled up and started crying and shaking terribly, didn't realize that this had to do with the abuse I had endured. Then It made me realize that my past has effected the way I live my future wether I wanted it to or not. So this made me take time out and search deep within, it made me look back on my past and help me fix what I endured. It made me finally face reality, we are all never perfect but if we continue to just pushing through things that bother us or hurt us, it will haunt you in your future. So you must face reality and don't shove it aside, nip it in the butt and forgive those that have hurt you this will one make you stronger but make life so much more peaceful.
You never know when time will be taken from you so if you just enjoy life everyday and appreciate it you will have a more uplifting time.
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