New Beginings.....

      As I have gotten older I sure have learned a lot about myself, I have learned that living my life for me is ok and its ok to be who I am no matter what anyone thinks even if its the ones u love. I have came out a few years ago to people that I am a lesbian, and ever since I have lived my life for me. I am actually the happiest I have been in a long time.
       I have grown so much in my life, I have learned that I must love myself before I can learn to allow anyone else to love me. I have been ran through the wringer in my life and had some mighty huge storms I had to go through, but I have surcummed them all. I have stayed strong.
         I have met the most amazing woman in my life who has showed me to forgive the people who have hurt me in my past and forget those awful things. To no longer be the victim but to be the survivor. I have washed away the pain and now will no longer allow myself to be the victim.
         My life is so amazing now Becky whome is my fiance has showed me a new side of me I am the happiest I have been in a long time. She makes me want to be the best person I can be. It's amazing to feel the love she has for me. I feel so lucky that I get to wake up everyday to her by myside. No matter what we go through the one thing we both know is that we have eachother to stand by our side.
          As a lesbian couple we have many obstacles to go through wether it be making a child or just working in the community, and even just plainly getting married. But no matter what leads in our future we will prevale together.

My best friend and lover

It's been a while since I have been on here, wow how time flies even when u don't want it to. Sometimes i wonder why everyone is always on the go have u ever just stopped and looked up at the sky, or stopped to smell the flowers, or how about just stopped to admire the one u love.
I have finally found unconditional love, and I have fallen madly in love with this wonderful woman. How can it be that i have had such rough times in my life, I always believe everything happens for a reason and I am truly happy that all that i have went through has lead me to this woman.
I stop to ponder what it is that I admire and love about her, How she is so blunt with me and oh boy it sometimes makes me frustrated but I love it, I love the way she gazes into my eyes, the way she softly kisses me, its the way she tells me everyday even on a day im ill and don't look my best but tell me how stunning and beautiful I look, I love that she is always there for me to comfort me and help pick me up when i fall, I love that know matter what she is there and I can count on her.

I know that she will always be there for me to make me smile when i am sad, to sooth me when i feel like my world is falling. I never thought I would find someone who loves me so much and too know that I love her back the same way. She is my best friend, my lover, the one i can lean on, and count on no matter what, she is my soul mate, I am truly happy I feel like im the richest woman in the world to have such an amazing partner.

Never to late to fall in Love.

My life has changed in so many ways.. I had believed that falling in love was never going to happen to me, especially me falling in love with them and them in return falling in love with me. I always remember the saying that has always stuck in my head the best person to fall in love with is your best friend. Can it be possible to fall in love with your friend and them in return to fall in love with you to? Is it destiny things happen and they then bring u together? Many questions bring into my mind can it be both? In my experience things happen for a reason we never know why or what that reasoning is but it happens. I have fallen in love with the most amazing woman in the world, one who loves me for me even with all my wrong doings. I have for so long sheltered myself and put myself on the back burner. But it was when I had given up and quit looking that love found me. But its true destiny happens and u can fall for your best friend, that was my experience. Becky has been my friend for quite a while and when she is around she warms my heart, I feel like fireworks are exploding every time she is near. I feel like shouting everyday I'm in love with Becky lol. Love does crazy things to you but it also completes you and makes u feel whole. I have been through so much and without any hesitation she has stuck by my side and has loved me. I look at my life and think how blessed I am to have her in my life. She warms my heart and soul, and I know feel complete. I feel like I have found my one and only true love and soul mate. When I look at her, all i can think of is how much I truly love her and how she is the other half of me. She is my sun on a cloudy day, my tear in my eyes, she is the peace amongst a war, she is my shield that protects me, she is the moon that lights up the night, and I just am glad to have a girl who I need and want to be with for the rest of my life. I hope that everyone can find true love, and feel as complete as I am feeling. <3


So I would like to show u my girl.